In a feeble attempt to cheer myself up (about the impending failure of the tests I’m taking tomorrow) I thought- well ya know, in the grand scheme of things two failing grades don’t really mean much. Which is true, but then that also means that in the grand scheme of the world my life doesn’t really mean much. Everything I am and everything I do are all completely meaningless compared to how vast and large the universe is. And that’s distressing. More and more my life feels like it’s slipping away from me like water through my hands and there isn’t anything I can do about it. I’m becoming increasingly aware of my own worthlessness.